Saturday, February 23, 2013

Week 10

I guess you noticed I missed a week... :(  There was so much going on last week that I didn't have time to write. Guess what?? We surprised your Mimi in Florida last week and she cried every time she looked at me! Then she would cry again every time she would see someone with a baby and she'd look at me. That's how happy we are that you are growing inside mommy's belly. When we left Florida to come home, everybody was trying to rub you in my belly. Did you feel them? It was great to see everybody and we all can't wait until we're together again and passing you around!

My body is having a rough time adjusting to you and I'm trying to do everything I can to make sure everything is as easy as possible for your little body to nourish and grow. I can't wait to meet you!!! I see all kinds of cute things I want to buy you but it's hard to buy for a baby when you don't know whether you're a little boy or a little girl. I don't care which  you are, as long as you are healthy. I want everything to be as perfect for you as I can possibly  make it and I'll give you my word that I will always do everything I can for you baby, Always.

I didn't think I could be more in love with your daddy than I was but with you growing inside me, I love him more and more every day. He has truly been my strength when I fail and when I get worried. He's the voice of reasoning when I get frustrated with things. He's there beside me telling me everything is going to be okay and I don't know if it's my love and your love combined but my heart is soooo swollen with love for him (and you of course) and I am so blessed to have him in my life. We are blessed to have you too!!

We saw you again this week. I got to see you bouncing around in mommy's tummy, it kind of looked like you were either dancing or throwing a fit. ;)  Then we had to go back to doctor that night and daddy got to see you dancing too. He doesn't know it but I couldn't see you because the doctor was standing in the way but I watched his face when he saw you moving, I think he felt the same aww as I felt when I saw you moving around. Seeing you moving and your little heart beating is the most reassuring thing I have ever experienced.

I love you, Kitten and I will continue to pray for you to grow healthy and strong. I will write every week of your progress so you will one day be able to look back and see how mommy was feeling when she was pregnant with you and the changes her body made.

<3

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Week 8

Today mommy is 8 weeks and 2 days pregnant with you. I know that doesn't seem like much but it seems like a lifetime ago when I found out I was pregnant. These past three weeks (I found out for sure at 5 weeks) have been the happiest days of my life even if my raging scrambled hormones has made it difficult to see that. Knowing that you are in my tummy growing bigger and stronger every day keeps me going.

I try not to get too upset for fear of hurting you and taking it easy when I can. I don't want anything to hurt you because I have waited my entire life for you and I cannot wait to meet you! I hope when you get a little bigger in mommy's tummy you will be able to hear my heart telling you the story of how I've prayed for you for a very long time. It will be a story that only you and I will know, a story that we would never be able to explain to anyone. They just wouldn't understand.

Kitten, you and your daddy have taken my heart and filled it to the very top with joy and happiness. I never knew a love like my love for your daddy existed until him and I never knew that I could be head over heels in love with something I could not see until you (although I fell in love with your daddy long before I saw him). I know you're just a little tiny seed in my belly but I imagine when I put my hand on my tummy you can feel that, you feel secure and safe knowing that my hand will always be wrapped Around you keeping you as safe as I possibly can or the rest of my life. I promise to always put your needs before my own and to never let you feel alone. You are mommy's miracle and I will tell you that every day for the rest of your life.

I read a lot of stuff about pregnancy because you are my first baby so I'm new to being pregnant and not sure what to expect. I took a hot bath last night to rest my feet but then I got scared that I ha the water too warm. The dr told me today that my body will tell me when I'm not doing something right so as soon as you're old enough in there help mommy out. Make sure I know what you like and what you don't so we can get thru this 7 months together more easily. Help me be the best mommy I can be before I ever lay eyes on your precious face.

I can't wait until you're here. I can't wait until I see you for the first time and hear your cries. I'm going to cry and mommy has a yucky cry face but I'm sure you won't mind because you will know by then how much I love you and how excited and anxious I was to meet you!! WE are so ready to meet you my sweet baby.

Love,

Your Mommy