Today me and your daddy go to the dr to have pictures made of you inside mommys tummy. We are hoping to see whether you are a little boy or a little girl, not that it matters but I know you don't want to be in nothin but yellow for the first three months and that's all mommy can find that is gender neutral. ;)
I promise you this, I will NEVER be disappointed with the outcome. Whether you are a boy or a girl will have no changes in my heart for you. You will always be my special miracle and I will always love you with every fiber of my being.
There's a lot of times when I sit and think about my life and the things I have been through and have seen. There are a lot of things I'm not happy about and a lot of blessings that were in disguises that I didn't See at the time. I want you to know that through all of those 34 years (at least the ones I can remember) YOU are the biggest and best blessing I could ever have asked for! I know I've told you many times how much I've dreamt of having a baby and have waited a very long time for you so I won't tell you again, I will say that you have given me a new look on my life and I can't wait to see you! I can't promise to be the best but I promise to hold your hand through all your obstacles and get you as far as we can go together. I promise to push you when you need that little push and to try my best to hold you back from any harmful situation that I foresee. I will always be beside you and try to do the best that I can. I will make you mad because I will be your parent more than your friend but I will always listen to you when you need someone to talk to. I want to be "the cool mom" but I want to be your mom none the less!
I love you more than you will ever know and more than you could ever imagine.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Monday, April 15, 2013
Week 18
Tomorrow I will be 18 weeks pregnant with you! I haven't written in a few weeks because I've been so busy watching my body change while you get bigger.
You have made my already big belly even bigger. I even ripped right out of my favorite jeans because you're growing so big! But it's okay, I love knowing that you're growing so big and getting strong so you can come meet me and your daddy. You have sooo many people waiting for you! I'm pretty sure none of them are as impatient as I am! I cannot wait until they put you in my arms for the first time. I know that there will be a million emotions run through my mind when you come into this world. There will be admiration, fear, love, amazement, how utterly miraculous you are, and a determination to do all that is within my power to never let you down.
Every day when I think of you I get scared that I will not be enough for you. So when you get old enough and you read this, know that every mistake I've made thus far is not because I did not care or because I did not try but know that I have done the best that I can do for you. You will ALWAYS come first to me. I hope that I can be the parent that I want to be. Know that when I tell you no I do so for your own good. When I make you mad I don't do it on purpose, there will always be a reason why and just because I make you mad doesn't mean I love you any less. You are a part of me and always will be. You are a product of the greatest love I have ever known. When I tell people about me and your daddy and our love story, you will be the main character! You and your daddy have given me everything I've ever wanted and I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world!
I read that you can hear now. Do you hear me playing you the music box for you? Do you hear your daddy playing the guitar? I love listening to him play the guitar so I know you will too. Maybe it will put you at ease like it does mommy. Do you hear me talking to you? I hope you will always be comforted by my voice. I hope that I will always be there when you need me to be and know that I will forever be available to you my sweet baby. I'm ready to feel you move already! I saw you move on the ultrasound but I haven't felt you yet. Will you wiggle a little and let me know you're in there!? I can hear your heartbeat and that's mommy's reassurance that you're doin okay. Next week we will see you again and hopefully be able to tell if you're a little boy or a little girl! IF you cooperate :) seems you're a little stubborn when I go to the dr. You like to hide and give the dr a run for their money and not let then find your heartbeat. Gonna take after your daddy I see ;)
I'm going to Write again next week after I know if I'm talking to a baby girl or a baby boy.
I love you to the ends of the world my baby!
You have made my already big belly even bigger. I even ripped right out of my favorite jeans because you're growing so big! But it's okay, I love knowing that you're growing so big and getting strong so you can come meet me and your daddy. You have sooo many people waiting for you! I'm pretty sure none of them are as impatient as I am! I cannot wait until they put you in my arms for the first time. I know that there will be a million emotions run through my mind when you come into this world. There will be admiration, fear, love, amazement, how utterly miraculous you are, and a determination to do all that is within my power to never let you down.
Every day when I think of you I get scared that I will not be enough for you. So when you get old enough and you read this, know that every mistake I've made thus far is not because I did not care or because I did not try but know that I have done the best that I can do for you. You will ALWAYS come first to me. I hope that I can be the parent that I want to be. Know that when I tell you no I do so for your own good. When I make you mad I don't do it on purpose, there will always be a reason why and just because I make you mad doesn't mean I love you any less. You are a part of me and always will be. You are a product of the greatest love I have ever known. When I tell people about me and your daddy and our love story, you will be the main character! You and your daddy have given me everything I've ever wanted and I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world!
I read that you can hear now. Do you hear me playing you the music box for you? Do you hear your daddy playing the guitar? I love listening to him play the guitar so I know you will too. Maybe it will put you at ease like it does mommy. Do you hear me talking to you? I hope you will always be comforted by my voice. I hope that I will always be there when you need me to be and know that I will forever be available to you my sweet baby. I'm ready to feel you move already! I saw you move on the ultrasound but I haven't felt you yet. Will you wiggle a little and let me know you're in there!? I can hear your heartbeat and that's mommy's reassurance that you're doin okay. Next week we will see you again and hopefully be able to tell if you're a little boy or a little girl! IF you cooperate :) seems you're a little stubborn when I go to the dr. You like to hide and give the dr a run for their money and not let then find your heartbeat. Gonna take after your daddy I see ;)
I'm going to Write again next week after I know if I'm talking to a baby girl or a baby boy.
I love you to the ends of the world my baby!
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