Week 7

Guess what?? Your mommy and daddy saw you for the very first time today! We saw you in mommy's belly and we heard your little heart beating. The nurse pointed out your heart and it looked like a little butterfly in your chest trying to fly away. Right now your heart is beating almost as twice as mommy's b/c you're a growing baby and it's trying to pump the blood through your tiny body. Have I told you how excited I am and blessed that I have you finally? And how long I've been waiting on you? If not I am soooooo excited and you are the very best Christmas present I've EVER gotten! Gotta give your daddy big props on getting me some awesome presents. ;)

I am 7 weeks pregnant with you today. It's already hard for me to button my jeans and I'm pretty sure I'm not supposed to be getting bigger yet so I'm thinking you're gonna be a big baby like your daddy was. So far you're not too picky about what we eat although you seem to like it when mommy is lazy cause I find myself piled up on the couch more and more when I'm home wanting to do absolutely nothing. I don't want to clean or cook or eat, I just want to lay there and relax. Most of the time I don't want to move b/c I'm too sick to my stomach to want to do much of anything. I DO know you have made my sense of smell intensify by 100! Daddy laughs at me b/c I can smell everything, even if it's just a little bitty smell. You certainly have made it hard for me to work where I work right this minute b/c of the smells here, if I yawn I gag but that's okay cause you're so worth it. I wouldn't care if I threw up every day as long as I knew we would both make it through this pregnancy okay. :)

This is you right now. You are 7.7 CM long which is about the size of a Blueberry. You are the most precious thing I have ever laid eyes on. Your tiny heart is about the only thing we can make out in the picture. Your brain is still growing and your eyes are starting to have color. I hope you have your daddy's eyes b/c mommy loves them and I know if I love looking into his eyes then I will adore looking into yours.

There are lots and lots of people excited for us and ready to meet you my sweet baby. I'm not the only one that has waited for you, we were just waiting until God thought it was the right moment to let it happen. He put me and your daddy together and we made a perfect vow, YOU.

Sleep well my kitten.

Week 6

Today I am six weeks pregnant with you.

I am still in shock that I have a baby (you!) growing inside of my belly. I am trying to read everything I can to make sure I am doing everything possible to make sure you're healthy and getting what you need to grow properly. I am afraid to sneeze in fear of hurting you which is silly, I know, but since I've waited for you so long I don't want to take any chances in losing you. So far you're not really making mommy feel bad and I hope it continues that way. You're not really making me sick (other than if I eat something you don't like) and the sleepiness I am dealing with by taking short naps on the weekends and going to bed rather early on the week nights. You are making my tata's sore which is okay since they are preparing themselves for you and feeding you. If it means making sure you get the best possible nourishment then bring on the pain!!

I found out last night that you don't like taco salad. Mommy had a yummy taco salad but I guess it wasn't what you wanted b/c you had me get rid of it pretty quickly. We're going to have to work on what you like and what you don't so I don't spend too much time with my head buried in the toilet! :) But, you're worth every bit of it, I already know that. Each day that goes by while you're in my tummy, I have to tell myself that you're in there. You're so still b/c you haven't grown enough to be moving around yet. I know that when the time comes I'll eat my words wanting you to move around. I know there will be a time when you're cutting flips in my belly or kicking me in my ribs letting me know you're in there. Maybe by then we'll know whether you're going to be our football star or our little ballerina. 

I caught myself window shopping (well, this day and age we don't actually GO anywhere really to window shop, we do everything on the internet cause we have become lazy like that) for baby items for you. I don't know if you're a little boy or a little girl yet so I don't know whether to buy blue items or pink frilly items! I just want to see you, I want to hear your heart beat knowing that you're really in there and it's not too good to be true!

Your hands and fingers are starting to grow now and your brain is growing like a genius. I just know you're going to be one smart baby!

Sleep well, my baby.

Hello, Kitten

Let me start out by saying I have waited for you for many many many years. I have spent many hours on my knees talking to God about you, praying that He will bless me with my very own angel, my very own you. And so here you are....after all these years and after all this time I finally have you growing inside of my tummy. When I met your daddy and fell in love with him I knew that I wanted to have babies with him. I knew that I would want to spend the rest of my life with him and have a family. You my little kitten, complete us.

Yesterday (January 15, 2013) I found out I was pregnant with you. I woke up the night before at 1:30 in the morning unable to sleep and I silently prayed to God and to your da-da who is in Heaven to let me be pregnant. I just knew in my heart I was setting myself up for disappointment since I truly thought I was unable to have children, but you had other plans. I guess you were ready to be with me just like I was ready to be with you. I even dreamed about you that night after I was able to fall back asleep...I saw it in my head, my reaction when I looked at the pregnancy test and it had the positive lines showing that I was pregnant. I saw myself looking at the test and sinking to my knees crying with a million thoughts running through my head. I pictured how I would tell your daddy that we were going to have a baby, that the one thing I wanted to give him that I thought I never could would be you, but again you had other plans. :)

This is the first one I took...This is the one that almost made me faint. I didn't know whether to believe it or not.

 Then just to make sure, we tried again. I never knew I could potty so much in such a short time but your mommy was very excited!!

 What can I say?? I was (and still am) in total disbelief!! Besides, there were three in the box so I figured "why not?" Your daddy asked me how many times I was going to potty on a stick!! :)

After the third test I couldn't sit still. I paced back and forth with my hands shaking and sweaty. My heart was beating like I just ran a marathon although I'm lazy and pace slow so I hardly use an exertion at all. These three tests with those two little lines, that means God released you to me!! Even after these tests I wanted to be positive about it so I made an appointment at the doctor immediately! After over an hour wait, your daddy and I got the news that we were indeed pregnant!! :D

Today I am five weeks pregnant with you. This is what you look like, you are 5 mm in length...soooo tiny!  You look like a baby mini (really mini) manatee! (We will show you those when we go visit your Mimi and Aunt Prplgrl in Florida!) You don't have fingers or hair or anything really right now but your brain is developing. I know you are going to be a smart baby b/c your mommy and daddy are pretty smart too (but don't tell him I said he's smart cause he'll get all big headed).
 

I can't wait until you're old enough for me to hear your heart beat. I can't wait until you're old enough to hear mine and I want you to know that my heart beats for you and your daddy. I've waited sooooooooo very long for you and every day that I have you will be the greatest day of my life.

Grow well, Kitten.

Love,

Your Mommy