Thursday, October 17, 2013

A Letter To Madelyn Grace

My Beautiful Daughter,

Each time I look at you I get so caught up in wondering who you’re going to be when you grow up that I forget that we have a very long way to go before that happens. So I wanted to take a little bit of time to sit down and write out a few things that I hope you will always take with you thru life.
First off, don’t let the world make you angry. There will be many times in your life that you will not agree with the cards you’re dealt but you’ll need to learn to embrace it, deal with it and move on. We can’t always control the way the wind blows but we can adjust our sails and go wherever we want to go even if it takes us a little bit longer to get there. Having said that, always ALWAYS remember that everything happens for a reason. Don’t let anybody tell you differently!! Always keep your faith, in yourself and in God. Know that no matter where you go, who you’re with, or what you’re doing God is there with you. He will never put more on you than you can handle even if you think you are at your wits end, just trust in Him to help you through difficult situations.

Always be true to yourself. Don’t ever change for anybody…be you. I promise, you will be much better off if you go through life being true to who you are instead of who people want you to be. Never feel like you aren’t enough, You Are! Make sure you stand firm in your beliefs.

Make sure to understand that not everybody in this world is out to do good. There are many people who would rather cheat you and stab you in the back before they would help you. Unfortunately you sometimes won’t’ know the difference between the good people and the bad people until it’s too late. There are people out there who would do anything to help you, those are the ones you need to keep near you. Be softhearted but strong enough to say no. Understand that there are people will use you until you finally have enough or you have nothing left. Some people just don’t care about anything or anybody other than themselves, make sure you’re not one of them. One of the biggest problems I have is I’m so softhearted and do not say NO quick enough. I trust to easily and because of that I have been hurt so many times. I don’t want you to ever feel that pain although I know it’s inevitable. You will feel it, probably more than once, but know that not everybody in this world will do you wrong. Be very careful of those you open your heart to but don’t be so hard that you turn everybody away and become sour. Be the best person you can be no matter how many times you’re wronged.

As your mommy this subject pains me. Romance…when you become interested in boys (or girls) don’t ever settle for less than you know you deserve! Before you settle down and get married, make sure you know who you are as an individual. Make sure you know what it feels like to be independent and to have your own things because you have worked for them. You have to be completely happy with who you are before you can be happy with someone else. Don’t let someone come into your life and give you a bunch of empty promises. Make sure every promise is followed through, not only on their side but yours as well. Don’t promise something you cannot carry out, that causes too much heartache. Don’t settle for someone who does not make your heart smile. Your lips can fake a smile but your heart cannot so until you feel your heart smiling, keep going. You will know when you find the person that you’re meant to be with. Know what you want before getting into a relationship. Make sure you don’t make exceptions for someone just b/c they’re a sweet talker, be wise enough to know the difference between truth and lies. Find someone who doesn’t complete you, you’re already complete…find someone who makes you a better you.

My biggest piece of advice I want you to remember is to stay simple!! Do not ever forget where you came from!! You’re just a tiny little baby still but you will understand by the time you’re able to read this and comprehend it what I mean when I say stay simple. Don’t be one of those complicated and high maintenance women.

There’s probably a lot more that I’ll throw in here over time but right now know that your mommy will always be here for you. I will always love you with every piece of my heart no matter what you do. You and me, we got a bond that nobody can ever understand and I will always try to keep it that way.

With All My Love,


Mommy

Thursday, October 10, 2013

One Month

Madelyn Grace,

Four days ago you turned one month old! It's so very hard to believe that it's already been one month since i first laid eyes on your beautiful little face. One month since they pulled you out of me and you cried one itty bitty cry then they had you all bundled up letting me see you and kiss you before they took you to get cleaned up with daddy.

When you were born, that was the happiest day of my life, hands down! Every day that goes by I love you more and more. You are an amazing little girl and I'm so lucky that I get the chance to be your mommy!

 I look at your now laying over there in your swing sleeping and I think to myself that I don't know what I did to deserve you but I'm glad you're finally here! I love watching you sleep. Your face changes so many times when you're dreaming, one minute you look like you're about to cry then your face changes to one of total bliss...then it'll change to a smile (which completely, totally and utterly melts my heart) then your eyebrows will go down and i can hear your Mimi saying "Eyebrows up, young lady!"

Have I told you today that I love you? I know I have, I tell you all the time how much mommy loves her little baby girl but you should just get used to it. I will tell you this every day several times a day until I have no breath left in me to say it, then I will tell you with my hands and you will forever see it in my eyes when I look at you. You are my heart and soul. Your little hands already hold my heart in them and your little feet will always be walking with all my love. You are my everything and I hope you always remember that!

I love you more than you can ever imagine but I know that when you grow up and get married and have your own babies you will understand the kind of love a mother feels for her child. I love you till the east touches teh west and the stars fall from the sky. <3